KARMA

I came to the realization today at 7:30am half asleep that, the way I treat my mother sometimes is the way he treats me when I think he’s being mean and unkind. 

KARMA sure is a bitch. 

My mom annoys the crap out of me sometimes with her overbearing nature and constant questioning and phone calls when I am out. This results in my rude annoyed tone, ignoring etc. (i am a bad daughter…i know) 

I do the same thing to him, and the way I react to my mother is the exact same way he’s been reacting to me. I hope my mom doesn’t feel the same way I do when he’s this way to me. 

Time for an attitude adjustment… because just like my mother is trying to be caring, worrying, etc. So am I towards him…

either i’ve become too sensitive or you’ve just become a big asshole…

Honesty

Sometimes it is important to let the people you love know exactly what is on your mind. 

My delivery method SUCKS, but I think I got my message across loud and clear. 

There has been a change. Words or a response is sometimes not necessary. People can SHOW you that they heard you and understood. 

I need to let go of my expectations.  I would have expected a discussion that would have went something like this “I’m sorry I am a jerk, I’m gonna treat you better. I LOVE YOU and want to have a future with you even though I do not want to discuss details right now.” 

I need to remember: 

God doesn’t give you want you want. He gives you what you need…

I wish you would just fucking say NO instead of beating around the bush. I could have made plans with someone else already. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So fucking frustrating. I hate when people cant be straight. It is just a shopping date not a marriage proposal. 

It does not need to be so fucking complicated! Either yes or no!

so sick of crying myself to sleep

i feel so alone